Morning :)
Yes, I'm not in school right now. For some reason. So, I've been thinking about this since last night,
I just realized that I've been losing my friends. Yes, I do. I only have my schoolmates now. Is it me or are they busy? Yeah whatever. I just need someone. Someone that I could share everything with, without getting embarrassed. Someone that could stay up late night, just to hear my stories. Someone that brave enough to say NO to me for what I wanna do. Someone that could give me shoulder, for me to cry on. Someone that I could call up in the middle of the night whenever I can't sleep. Someone that would be there throughout everything. Someone that could cheer me up. Someone that will never be bored hearing me crying. Can I just have that kind of person? I don't care if it's a girl or a guy, I just want/need that type of person. I have tons of problems and I got no one to talk to.
I lost a friend yesterday, K. He's the one who cheered me up after I broke up. He used to messaged me morning text, like long time ago, February I guess. I miss that. Then we lost contact. Then he messaged me, early April I think, saying that he miss our chit chat. And we started to talk again. Then something happened, about the formspring. Well, we don't give a damn about that. And I didn't regret clicking him after I broke up. He made me smile. I remembered, during my netball interschool, he asked me to score one for him, and I did, I remembered his name when I was about to score. We always talk about sport, him with his football and I'm with my netball.
And I also remember him saying that he wanna meet his girlfriend and I was surprised 'cause he never told me that, then he told me it was football. Lol. No, I'm not saying that I like him. He's just fun to be with. And I miss him now. Seriously :/ It all happened when he said, "text me if you need me" and yes, I texted him after something happened, last Thursday. But I was very disappointed that there was no reply AT ALL. Like yeah, why would he say that if he doesn't even bothered to reply me? Hmm, why am I talking about him anyway? Maybe I have a crush on him, MAYBE. Damn :S
Maybe I should stop. Bye.
xx.
